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It feels like forever since I’ve been on here. It’s been a wee bit crazy here since Mother’s day. We had my Gram come up on Mother’s day afternoon for a BBQ with my mom, sister, and I.

We planned that she would go home on Wednesday AM, but in the early hours of Wednesday, Gram in a confused state climbed the stairs to the second floor of the house (thinking we were in our old house in Massachusetts, which we haven’t lived in over twenty years.) 

She was awake, confused, hallucinating most of the night with my Mom keeping watch. Well, in a moment she wasn’t being supervised around 3:30-4:00AM, she fell out of my mom’s bed, hit her face on the ground and broke her nose. We drove her down to her usual ER/Hospital that has her medical records on file, and despite everything she was okay to be released. Her face never ever swelled too much or turned black and blue. However, since then she is averaging 1.5-2 hours sleep each night. My poor mom is exhausted and doesn’t have support of her siblings (one lives in Maine and the other in Maryland). Thankfully my mom isn’t working right now and had the ability to try to take my gram to all her appointments and keep a watchful eye over her. 

Unfortunately, it’s time that we look at placing her in a nursing facility. My mom is living with my sister and I and needs to find a job. She isn’t able to really do any of these things while my Gram is here. 

Although my love for my Gram is over the moon, the fact is, is she is not safe. She needs 24/7 care to be there for her. We have caught her so many times trying to exit through the door to the garage, or through the front door when she is having a temper tantrum, and that is not good. My mom is having such guilt because in her heart of hearts, I know she thought once she got on her feet and secured a job/home in this area, that she wanted to have my Gram move in. Unfortunately, it is not realistic. 

Her primary care doctor has been on vacation for the past two weeks and returns tomorrow. Her backup doctor is unable to do anything (write a new prescription, place in a temporary nursing facility, etc). We’re hoping when she is seen by her primary this upcoming Friday, they can have a bed available for her. I’m so broken hearted, because my Gram is just a shell of who she was… I see glimpses of her every now and then, but it’s just not the same. 

I already requested time off, so my mini-vacation starts Thursday at 5pm and ends next Tuesday night. I’m so looking for some days off. I don’t even really feel like me. 

I hope everyone is well and I look forward to catching up on everything in the meantime. 

I am officially checked out of work and want to head home to beat traffic.

I’m pretty caught up with most of my stuff and want to head out early.

Unfortunately my small team doesn’t do that, so it’s not really an option. Don’t get me wrong, if there’s ever a reason I would need to leave, I could. But I don’t think the reason of “but it’s Monday” would count.

In other news… I’m off five whole days for Memorial Day weekend!! I’m off from 5/24 and will return on 5/29! No plans other than just taking some time off for R&R.

Just sitting here watching the 80’s cult classic, “Over the Top” with Sylvester Stallone. I should be getting showered and dressed.

I loved this movie as a kid.